Hi, I have not cut for almost an entire year. It was tough but I made it! I still have many urges only now I know how to handle them.

This is a poem that I wrote to remind myself to stay strong through my depression, anxiety, self-mutilation and any other hard times. So I wanted to share this with all of you. Enjoy.

How Does It Feel?

I climb up from the darkness,

towards the visible light,

so take it slow,

you have a ways to go

day by day I struggle,

but I won't let you win,

because all you gave me,

was a life full of sin

How does it feel?

to be under control,

how does it feel?

to know what is real,

How does it feel?

to be on the right track,

how does it feel?

to be strong and fight back,

Time to start over,

burn this tainted slate,

focus on what's right,

so don't hesitate

When temptation is strong,

just counterattack,

go run or play whatever it takes,

to find the place where I belong

How does it feel?

to be under control,

how does it feel?

to know what is real,

How does it feel?

to be on the right track,

how does it feel?

to be strong and fight back,

keep searching,

keep hoping,

keep breathing,

keep being

keep wanting,

keep needing,

keep feeling,

keep believing

How does it feel?

to be under control,

how does it feel?

to know what is real,

How does it feel?

to be on the right track,

how does it feel?

to be strong and fight back,

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