I guess it couldnt last for ever...

I guess my whole year and a half cut free didnt last, Wont last.

I think about it every day now..

Its always on my mind...

I want, Need, to feel alive again..

I feel so alone, heart broken, and dead.

so numb.

someone save me.

the need to feel something, anything, would be wonderful.

I want to cut.

I want to bleed.

I want to die on last time with my little razor..

just one last time. and itll be something to remember.

The scars dont fade.

there always there.

but I cant help but feel so hurt.

I want to cut.

I want to bleed.

I want to die.

Is anyone out there?

I know your in mylife.

but, things have changed, and I feel I DONT know you anymore..

you not mine.

your not who I feel in love with so long ago.

you NOT the one who saved me.

your the MONSTER who killed me in 6th grade when this all started..

7 years.

7 years.

7 years.

Whats happening to me?

I thought I was a surviver.

but I cant help but slip back into that hole.

the dark takes over once again.

your with me, but I cant see you any more..

your with me but I cant hear you any more..

your with me but I cant feel you any more..

Your here, but you not..

I want to cut.

I want to bleed.

I want to die, again, again, again...

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