Wow, its been a long time since i first discovered this site four years ago. I'd like to think I've grown up since then but I haven't. These doctors have given me a name...its in the DSM IV number 296 I think. Bipolar Disorder. Of course I'm thrilled you know, just to have another problem added to the list.

I've been searching through the archives tonight looking for all my long lost entries, and the thought occurred to me...

I still want it.

I still want to feel that pain. Its been about 4 months, and before that over a year. Stress has seemed to manifest itself in other ways since then...but the desire hasn't ever left...I just keep shoving it to the back of my mind, hoping it doesn't rear its ugly head ever again.

But who am I kidding?

My name is irrelevant, and I am a cutter.

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